Tension Headache--the worst

I was trying my hardest to not get a headache yesterday, but sometimes I'm just too sensitive.  There was too much noise at work and I ended up walking out of work with a headache and into gridlock traffic on the highway.

I'm glad my sister has gotten to the "get rid of a headache" portion of her massage school.  I felt much better after she worked on me, and we had pizza and called it an early night.

The Big Disneyland Goodbye...Planning Phase

Hubby and I are planning to go to Disneyland for my birthday in March.  It's so desperately expensive, I can't imagine families being able to go on their own anymore.  I almost want to boycott so they understand how it's become impossible to go if you aren't independently wealthy.

I guess after this trip, I will be boycotting involuntarily.  The big goodbye trip.

Rat Tail

My sister's friend was supposed to come over tonight. She graduated beauty school and was going to help me trim the back of my hair. My pixie cut is growing out and looking a little mullet-y. 

She never showed up. Guess I should've seen that coming. I really wish my hair stylist wasn't 9 hours away. 

Just another Manic Tuesday

It's my Monday, and it was a casual start to the work week.  I switched days off with someone because they wanted to watch the Superbowl, so this is going to be a 6 day work week.  I'm glad it's starting off casual.

My sister made quinoa and cheese tonight, it was pretty good.  J and I bonded over some shared hatred of something at work.  We decided to go out for a drink later this week to do some more high quality bonding.

I just go to the point in Melrose Place where Amanda Woodward just freaking bought Melrose Place and I lost my damn mind.  25+ year old spoilers.  I'm glad I wasn't spoiled at all.

Best Laid Plans

I was a little tummy sick all day, but fixed my phone and managed to clean quite a few things before my sister came home.

We did a little shopping and then she went to a classmates house to study.  I was kinda hoping for a sister night but studying comes first I guess.

Overall I'm just glad that I got some cleaning and some alone time done.  That's few and far between these days.

Painting Class

Hubby and I took a painting class this morning.  Mine is the pretty terrible one on the right, but for some reason I really love taking these classes.  I don't feel like I'm wasting my time or money, and in the end I really get a fantastic sense of accomplishment.

Usually the class comes with booze, but this was a morning class.  The bar was open but I felt a little weird drinking that early, or at all lately.  I'm still waiting for a call from the liver doctor.  I know that I don't drink too much but every time I'm offered one I think I might be currently dying and a drink sure wouldn't help.

There was a party at a club later that night and I stayed just under an hour due to the fact that everyone was getting drunk quickly, whereas I wasn't even finished with my bottled water.  I do enjoy a drink, but as I grow older it loses what it should be doing.

Saturday Work Day

Saturday work days are so casual I can barely recall anything that happens.  I like uneventful, but pleasant days.

Nice Words

A text from a friend is a good way to remember the day. 

It's nice to feel appreciated. 

Dead Friendship

The fight escalated with G when he betrayed J's trust and aired her dirty laundry on Fakebook.

They were both in the wrong, but I can't abide the fact that he so freely told a secret on a public forum. We were all so tight, and I can't believe he would do something so immoral. 

Maybe I do set too high of a standard for my friends, but I can't pretend to be cordial with someone with no moral compass. 

He's certainly not moving in with me anymore. I just have to tell him, which is going to be a challenge. It's going to be a fight. 

Look up the word Loan in a dictionary please

Finally caught up with HIMYM tonight. I am both sad that it is ending and happy it's going out so beautifully.

Had a difficult conversation with G today. He's not getting a loan he thought he'd get, so by his understanding he's got to get a job in town instead of moving out to get work. 

In the end I just don't want him staying with us indefinitely. I guess we'll see. 

FryDay Hangover

I was searching for a TV series on Netflix Watch Now at work today and saw they had Melrose Place.

I have never seen this show before, but it was so 90stastic I thought I was going to die laughing. The storyline, though a little contrived, has actually stood the test of time. The fashion however...oh the hilarity!

It made my whole sleep-deprived day brighter.  

FryDay

It was a pretty good night as almost all our friends got together for FryDay. Earlier that day I had some stomach issues and took Imodium AD. Not the best idea when you don't have a gall bladder and about to eat a crapton of fatty foods.

I'm currently in a lot of pain and can't sleep, but I hope I get there soon. Work tomorrow is going to be hard with so little sleep. 

I did get some cute rain/snow boots today. There is an upcoming family reunion on my Hubby's side in Seattle, so now I'm all prepared. 

National Park Day

Hubby, my sister and I went to a day trip to a National Park today. It's so beautiful there, and I think everyone enjoyed it. 

Birthday party later tonight for a co-worker, and prep for FryDay tomorrow. It's gonna be a great weekend. 

TGIF, but not with a vengeance

It was a pretty slow workday, but full of fun people to fill the time. It's nice to have people around you that lift you up and make fun memories. 

I came home and watched Under The Gunn and then got ready for my weekend ahead!

Frozen; such a good movie you'll cold cock a child

I got a call tonight from my friend J who told me she was just out with her team to see Frozen.

They had stayed until the end to see the cute closing scene. She stood up and swung around to see where her team was when she cold cocked a child running by. 

The kid didn't cry, but when the mom came around and the kid said "that lady hit me!" And the mom replied "well that's what you get for running off"

Her team died laughing at her and decorated her desk in pictures of people being punched. It was a memorable night for her. 

Itching

I have no clue why, but a few days ago my legs started itching really badly. It's still happening and I feel bad because I think I'm allergic to my sisters cat.

I got home so late last night. I had too much to drink and G drove me home. Hubby drive me to work. It was nice not driving for 24 hours. 

Drink night again

More drinks with friends tonight. So happy to be having a dirty martini. Low carb!

Closet shopping

I didn't really get home or settled in until after 11PM. I went over to a neighbors house who was giving her clothes away, so I took a couple of items. That is my favorite way to shop, everything is already comfotably worn in.

My cubicle neighbor is driving me crazy. It's the little quirks that are getting to me, but yesterday she asked me if it was appropriate to text her boyfriend "I love you deeply" as if I had a handle on their entire relationship. I really need to find a way to chill out about it. Right now my way of dealing is a giant pair of headphones. 

I heard there is a shift bid coming up soon. I hope I can basically stay where I am and she can go literally anywhere else. 

Spring Cleaning, Without the Spring

I like to do a deep clean of the house in January, because then I always remember when the last time I cleaned something was.  I started this year of deep cleaning, today, in our bedroom.

So far I only really have the bedroom itself and the big closet, and I still haven't touched the bathroom.  It's back to work tomorrow too, and the hubby has this week off so I hope he gets more done.

I got a little cranky today when we were going to lunch with a friend and Hubby said he couldn't drive because he hadn't gotten gas and we were running late.  Then the friend we picked up needed to go to the post office and brought packages with him.  I really hate feeling like I'm a taxi service without the payment.

Out of my husband and the friend, I make the least amount of money and drive a good 95% of the time.  I do have a car that I like to drive, but I also don't really have the extra funds for gas, especially after I drove all the way out to the mall yesterday and spent at least $100 while I was there, and most of it not even something for me.  It was stuff for the husband or for the house.  Although I did pick up a belt that should work for my entire weight loss, which is nice.  I'm 24 pounds down in total, with about 50 more to go.

After a trip to Fry's (not my favorite place) and to the stupid post office, we dropped off our friend and went back home to clean.  As we were on our way home I noticed I was getting a really bad headache and was still in a foul mood.  It suddenly hit me that I hadn't had any caffeine yet today, and that was at least causing the headache.  I was a couple hours shy of 8 hours of sleep as well, and I'm the type of person that needs at least 8 to function properly.

I was a little worried I was getting back into being depressed and just an all around foul person until I thought of the caffeine.  As soon as we stopped for an energy drink and I had a little in me I felt better.  I was pretty productive today and about to have a productive night before going to sleep.  Another work week begins!

Mall Rats

Sundays are quickly becoming my favorite day of the week because we all get to be together.  My sister needed a real day planner since her massage school doesn't allow cell phone to be used for any reason in class, so we made a trip to the mall in the next town over.

I haven't been to a real mall in a really long time.  I was super excited to see that VS and BBW were having their semi-annual sale at the same time and spent more money that I probably should have.  But I'm glad that I now have enough for an actual lingerie drawer, something I never would have thought about when I was depressed.

5 months ago I would have thought it was a complete waste of money to buy "pretty" underwear as it didn't make me feel any better about myself.  To be fair I still wouldn't wear thongs or frilly bras every day of the week because I like to be comfortable.  I also like to look a certain way in clothing, and that's not seeing the lace on my bra through my shirt.

Everything is so much better now in terms of my self esteem despite my being against daytime lingerie.  I feel like putting on makeup every day and caring about my appearance.  I'm still trying to wrangle this pixie cut into something cute every day, but in the end I know I'll figure out something that will look average for the day.

I'd really like to go shopping for new clothes but I really should be looking into joining a gym so I can lose more weight.  There is one opening very close to the house, but I don't really want to join for ethical reasons.  They have pizza and tootsie rolls there, and some sort of "asshole alarm" when someone drops a weight or make too much noise.  I've also heard that if you get too fit, they kick you out. It is only $10 a month though, and it's hard to argue about that kind of price.  My sister might join with me, so I guess we'll look into it later.  I am still losing weight, but very slowly at this point.  Dr. Hitler wanted me to lose 30 pounds by the time I saw her in April.  I'm only down about 5 pounds since I saw her last.

The Last of the Christmas Roast Beast

Sorry about these popping up late, my laptop decided it doesn't like to connect to the internet anymore and the app doesn't like publishing.

At work today I texted my 2 friends and asked when we were exchanging the rest of our Christmas presents.  We had to wait for a delayed package to come in for one of them (damn polar vortex).  We decided to make it that night and stay for a drink downtown.

It's hard for us all to get together, but I thought for a moment it was all going to blow up in my face when we continued to group text each other during the day.  My guy friend G texted about an hour before "Hey ladies my gf got off early and is gonna join for a few minutes and I'm gonna bounce she was supposed to get off at 10.  We are going out early tomorrow so she is spending the night with me.  Just a heads up."

I got upset with him because if he wasn't going to stay then why were we even getting together?  After some fun back and forth about that G sent a huge text out that included "OUT OF CONSIDERATION FOR YALLLLL, I told her we will be exchanging gifts and then leaving because y'all won't want her around...So at the end of the day I was looking out for you ladies."

I got offended again because I have zero against this girl and I'm sure he's telling her something stupid like we hate her to rile her up.  So I texted back that we all needed to go out for a drink and freaking STAY out together, and I brought it up when we were together also and let her know that G is the one making up these crazy stories about us not liking her.  It was a tiny bit of drama, but in the end we all stayed out drinking and having snacks and had a really nice time.

My sister has a kid in her massage school class that looks like one of the actors in Supernatural, so we are now referring to him as Winchester whenever he comes up.

At the end of the night I was really happen to be going out and having a good time with everyone, and how we don't have many of these days left.  G is moving out to LA and I hope to be moving back home by the end of this year.  This is quickly becoming a really good time in my life, and I hope I'm not screwing it up or not taking opportunities I should be.

The Correct Amount of Slutty

I discovered the last few days saved as a draft instead of posting on the app, so I post-dated the last few days.  Whoopsie.

My sister is going out to a club with her friend tonight.  She was going to go without any makeup on, but I convinced her to let me put at least a tiny bit on.  She's a small town girl, newly single, going into a Party City Big Time club for the first time.  She's either going to hate it or end up falling into the trap of partying that happens to 20somethings here.  She needed to be the correct amount of slutty.  I was only a year or so younger when I came, and I made a majority of my stupid decisions at a club or driving home from one.  I wouldn't trade it for the world, but they were still stupid mistakes.  I guess she has to make her own mistakes though.

While she goes out and makes bad decisions, I'm re-watching Frozen.  I haven't liked a Disney Movie this much since Beauty and the Beast.  I can't wait until this comes out on DVD.  I need this digital copy on all my devices.

Her

It was just a normal day at work, but I did get to see "Her."  It's actually the first Spike Jonze film I've seen.  I keep meaning to see "Being John Malkovich" but can never get around to it.

"Her" was amazing, and I love how rich it was with emotion.  It's like what every Sofia Coppla film is trying to be and falls short.  There is deep emotion within the moments of silence.  I'm not normally a ScarJo fan either, but I think she was perfect in this role.  It helped that I didn't see her I guess.  It is an amazing movie and I would recommend anyone see it.

ETA: I posted this to Tumblr when I saw it because it really was the one thing that bothered me about the movie.  It's like the props department and the costume department really didn't get along.  Or it was symbolic of never really fitting in.  Either way, bothersome.  I refuse to believe the future holds fun technology with the unfortunate downside of high waist pants.

Vodka Party

I had said that if I got my period I would throw a Vodka party for myself.  It was a little embarrassing how many people were aware of my (hopefully upcoming) Vodka Party joke.  A quick trip to the bathroom gave me the good news that I was not going to have a small child exit my body in 9 months.  Huzzah!

I had to send a text to three people, and I approached my work BFF and said "Hey, guess what?  VODKA PARTY!"

She was a little hesitant but good with drinking, until she suddenly remembered what Vodka Party actually meant.  We high fived and talked about how if we could leave work we'd go and have a real one.  My sister actually went out and got vodka and we had a drink when I got home.  Hubby even took me out to Sushi.

I wish it was this fun every month.

Back to Work

After my three day weekend, the first day back was hard, but quick. I think I might need to wake up early tomorrow and get antibiotics for this cold/flu thing. 

Still no period, although the pregnancy scare jokes still continued today. My sister has started a countdown clock to when I decided to get a pregnancy test. 

My "shows" Pretty Little Liars came back today. My sister went upstairs while I watched them, but I don't blame her. They are a little too young for me. But for now, eating junk food and watching silly TV feels like where I'm supposed to be. 

Attachment Cat Parenting

Everyone else had left the house this morning when I heard terrible crying. Not normal cat whining, but honest to god near sobs. 

This is Harlo, my sister's cat. He was making the ruckus, and so I put on The Postal Service and snuggled with him for a minute and he seemed to calm down. 

For a moment I realized why people leave talk radio on for their pets. I just hope this helps him. 

Late start, happy endings

Woke up with a sore throat again, and some coughing/congestion. I hate the "hangers-on" colds. I also hate that I sound like a smoker. 

After 2 hot beverages, sis and hubby and I did some light shopping for food and clothing. Sis starts massage school tomorrow, and I'm really hoping she likes it. 

She and her cat are getting along in the house just fine. My blind cat is still a little weary, but overall it was a really smooth transition. 

I'm so glad I have another day off tomorrow, this was a much-needed long weekend. All I have to do is shake this cold and I'm ready for action. 

Playing Hooky

I was only at work for 15 minutes when I decided I couldn't be there anymore. I took a personal day and picked up a friend and my sister and we had lunch and went downtown to a park to hang out. 

They had a big adult sized slide that I went down. The first slide since I realized I was too big for mcdonalds and scraped up my back when I was 11.

A midnight-ish snack with friends and the hubby before calling it a night, and my sister went out with friends. 

After being sick, this is the kind of (my) Friday that I needed. I still have two days off to have fun. Maybe see a movie. 

I should have started my period today but didn't. I'm a little worried, but won't take a pregnancy test for another few days. 

Pharmacies and Doctors are evil

I can't stand my regular doctor and my pharmacy. I put in for a renewal over a week ago, and they don't answer, then they deny a refill. If I was taking blood pressure medication or something that was keeping me alive, I'd be dead by now. 

Being sick is driving me insane and my temper is so short. My head feels like it weighs a million pounds and is so congested, although I can breathe normally. I only have 6 hours of sick time, and I'd like to build that up more before I call out for a day. I might not have a choice if I feel this way again tomorrow. 

Career, relationships, health. Can't ever have all three at once, can you?  Sometimes you can't even have one at a time. 

Sick, but not dead

I'm still fighting this "not a cold" thing. I have so much more energy lately that it's so hard for me to actually rest when I need it. Suffering from hypo for so long, I never want to rest again. I should have stayed home from work but decided to tough it out. I might have to call it an early day tomorrow if I don't feel well. 

My sister is moving out here tomorrow for massage school. Living with her again is going to be different, hopefully not bad. 

Watching Project Runway, I'm excited for the new Under the Gunn series. I love everything that man does and I wish he lived in my closet to advise me everyday. 

I need a night out soon, I hope my small group of friends can get together before too long. I want to start out 2014 right. 

ETA: the Veronica Mars movie trailer is out today. I gave this movie one hundred of my hard earned dollars, and I'm so excited to see it!  

Happy New Year!

Even though it was shaky, 2013 ended up being a great year for me. One of the best in a long time. No one died, and I finally feel like my health (both physical and psychological) is finally on the right track. 

I'm down 25 pounds, but also down with strep, or something like that. My throat is killing me and it hurts to speak. I feel as if it's my body reminding me I still have a voice. Here.  

I feel like every time I make a resolution to write or take a picture once a day, something bad happens that year. Yet I've still decided I need to write daily and keep myself on track for this pivotal year. 

This is the year I'm leaving the town that I hate so much and moving back home. Nothing has ever felt more right, but the other day I did feel a twinge of regret. You can't repeat the past, you can't go home again. I just need to prepare myself for the town it has turned into, rather than the town it was 10 years ago. 

Hopefully this will help me.