Monday, December 26, 2011

The Miracle of Life

There was a death in the family this month.  Like all deaths, it was expected yet unexpected.  It was a parent of my husband's this time, which is altogether a different thing from 2009 when I dealt with my side of the families deaths.

This week I watched the Hanukkah lights slowly burn down and finally out, like life.  I have to be strong for my husband, but in that moment, with the lights one by one going out, I let myself think about how life is like a candle, starting out burning bright, and slowly going out.

I started the year about to turn 30, and without a job.  I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism, and started thinking that maybe those weekly pill boxes might not be such a bad idea after all.  I did have a job lined up, and I managed to keep it before the end of the year, which has been nice.  I hope to get my thyroid medication working next year, enough so I can lose weight and think about having a baby.  Maybe.

I want to have the energy to enjoy life, before death comes knocking at my door.