I IMed with Mike of The Mike Project for a good chunk of the day today, and I realized what a great friend he is, both on and offline, and no matter how much time has passed. There are not too many people out there that are great at both.
Monday, March 10, 2014
Nothing happened today except a real "fun" text conversation with J. Her passive aggressive comments and refusal to meet to talk in person is pissing me off. She actually sent me a gif of "Let it Go" from Frozen.
Saturday, March 08, 2014
20 minutes ago I sent a text message to J asking to meet up to discuss what happened about two weeks ago. No answer yet.
My sister came to work today to play some ping pong and have lunch. A co-worker gave me some guilt about the whole J situation while we were eating, and I decided for the good of everyone around us I needed to either end it or fix it enough so everyone else wasn't uncomfortable.
Part of me is pretty pissed off that I'm getting the pressure to fix it when I don't feel like I was the one who did anything wrong. I'm fairly certain that in literally all situations I'm put in, it is mandatory that I be the bigger person.
Being an adult is lame.
Friday, March 07, 2014
Some days you have nothing to do but look ahead to the future. Once we have our new shifts at work and are told to back our desks, the present no longer exists. We can only look ahead with anticipation, surrounded by boxes.
Thursday, March 06, 2014
I got on the scale this morning and dropped 2 pounds from the 5 pound gain while I was off my meds. I'm still considered overweight, but no longer obese. I should feel better, and like I'm moving in the right direction, but I still feel like I have a very long way to go.
I blame this in part to the re-rise of MySpace. It came back with all my old pictures on it, pictures from when I was in the 120's instead of the 160's. Enough time has gone by that I actually see how young I looked, instead of just how skinny I looked. Maybe that is because of my impending birthday.
My mom asked what day I was celebrating, and I told her that it most likely wasn't going to be "celebrated" at all. My low carb diet prevents major cake binging. I'm officially so old I could be on Sex and the City. They seem so much sexier than I feel. Of course, all of their bodies put together wouldn't equal one of mine.
Hubby and I joined a gym a few days ago. Time to start going.
Wednesday, March 05, 2014
I can't claim the title of this post, I saw it on tumblr today. Purim is coming up for me though, although there isn't much to do with most Jewish holidays except for go to temple, which I haven't done since I was around 8. So, I'm pretty much going to let that holiday pass.
Today I was still tired, but finally felt like I was along the right path again with all my meds. J and I didn't speak, but I did talk to a few co-workers about it. They say I'm being too easy on her and I should be more mad. That made me feel better.
I've been too sick to worry about the stuff piling up on my DVR lately. Running through the list, I have horrible taste in TV shows. I've currently got 2 Broke Girls, Bates Motel, The Crazy Ones, and 2 episodes of Dallas. I feel like that old lady with my stories.
I need to call the GI doctor tomorrow to set up an appointment. I've got to get my physical crap together.
Tuesday, March 04, 2014
Being Jewish, I only know about Fat Tuesday and Ash Wednesday from books and movies. I once almost wiped someone's ashes off their forehead because I didn't know what it was.
So I guess it is supposed to be a day where you feast like hell, and I think it is the last day of Mardi Gras. It felt like anything but a party today.
I couldn't sleep due to yesterday's misadventures. I ended up getting up hours before I needed to in order to pace and continue to call the doctor's office until they opened. It was in those wee morning hours that I also discovered that the antibiotics I am taking just gave me a yeast infection. I had almost managed to forget that my body does that after a heavy round of Amoxicillin.
I stayed on hold for 20 minutes while the doctor called the pharmacy and finally got the correct medication. I picked up some Monistat 1 (Who has time for the 7 day or 3 day version? No thank you) that seems to come as a "fun pack" now. It came with the treatment, 4 "cool wipes," and the normal ointment. I fully expected a warm blanket and a grandma to come popping out, and she would tell me that life was all going to be okay.
Of course I was in a meeting when I was supposed to take my pill, and I forgot to take it afterwards. I was IMing back and forth with J today about what happened on Thursday. She seems really defensive and passive aggressive about it, and I tried to explain my side. I was the last one to send a message, so I guess the ball is in her court. I have a feeling this is the beginning of the end of this friendship. All I really wanted was for her to say she wanted to work it out, but she never did.