Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Adult Day

I did a lot of adult crap today.  I got the house ready for new people to see it around 2:00 PM.  They were really nice, and hopefully they really liked the house.  Then I left quickly before the 5:00 PM appointment to get my oil changed and picked up my prescriptions.  When I walked into Sam's Club they handed me a flyer that said they were doing flu shots until 5:00 PM that day, and no other day.  So I decided that I should follow Dr. Hitler's advise and get a flu shot.  I really can't be sick like I was at the beginning of the year again, I just can't seem to bounce back quickly enough.

I hurried home and about 20 minutes before they were supposed to show up they canceled.  Figures.  At least I got all my adult crap out of the way.  It's funny, when I was a kid I thought about how cool it would be to be in charge of my life like this.  I went to get an oil change because it needed to be done, talked to the mechanic about what needed to be replaced for next time.  I got a flu shot despite the fact that I'm still not fond of needles.  I did it because it was the adult thing to do.  Of course, I also felt like I really deserved a milk shake afterwards for doing it and not being a big whiner.

But I didn't get one, because I'm an adult.  Being an adult is not as much fun as it was in my head when I was a kid.

Monday, September 29, 2014

The Maze Runner

Since dropping the price we had a person come visit today to see the house.  The actual buyer is out of the country so they were skyping with her, and I think they were speaking Korean.  It was a little awkward, but they were very nice.  I'm not sure they were really interested in the house.

Hubby wanted to get out of the house since we'd been waiting for them to show up for most of the day.  We went to see The Maze Runner, and I have to say I'm about done with Dystopian crap.  It's all a trap within a trap within a trap and I'm really just about finished.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Indiana Jones and the Boulder

Work is not really getting any better, and they just keep rolling out new programs that it is almost too much to keep up with.  It really feels like I'm Indie, trying to get out of the way of the boulder before it crushes me.  I've got to find another job and leave this one behind soon.

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Blog Cleaning Day

I brought my laptop to work today to clean up this blog a little.  Posting to the app only works sometimes, and it doesn't let me post date if I happen to post it after midnight.  I am still blogging everyday, it's just not making it onto the blog.

The realtor texted us today to ask about dropping the price of the house to $199 so people looking at the 200 and under will see it.  We agreed, and I've never just talked about thousands of dollars lost like that before.  It feels weird, because the money wasn't mine to begin with, but it feels like it.  I feel like I'm losing money, especially since Hubby already decided he was going to use the money we make from the sale to wipe his debt.  I hate that idea since it's my money too, but he has been paying the mortgage for 4 years so I guess he's entitled to a little more.  Of course, I've been paying everything else but I guess keeping the lights and AC going doesn't count for much in the end.

Friday, September 26, 2014

Bitch Session

I brought some of Hubby's chilli to work today for lunch.  It didn't exactly reheat well, which was a bummer.  I ended up staying late an hour to talk to a co-worker about what was going on with me and with her.  Her son wants to come stay with her for awhile, but he just got himself kicked out of the military and doesn't want to look for a job, and she doesn't make enough to support him.  She is pretty stressed out, and I really feel for her.

She is appalled that I clean up so much after Hubby, which everyone seems to be when I tell them what I do.  She has Hashi's so she knows that my energy level isn't exactly hitting the normal range.  I told her that it ran me more ragged emotionally to continue to nag him about it rather than just clean it up myself.  It does make me wonder sometimes though, if people can ever be capable of real change with things such as that.  I don't think he really realizes how much it bothers me on a day to day level, but even if he did I don't think that it could change.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Clean Cup, Move Down

Even though we are not changing shifts at work for a week, they decided to tell us to pack up to move desks soon.  We They decided to do a random number pull for seating this time, and I ended up with the two older ladies that are actually pretty similar to me, so I dubbed out spot Sassmasters Circle and decided to hope for the best if they have us move soon.  I still hold out hope that I won't be here by the time the next shift starts.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Stop the Ride, I Want to Get Off

My Monday was Garfield sized today.  I started out with the whole first half of my work day at meetings, which is just too much people to deal with alongside the fact that I have to help run the meetings.  The last meeting was a focus group about the first meeting.  I wish I could explain about what my job is currently doing, but it is so convoluted I'm exhausted just thinking about it.  I imagine it is what getting caught in the undercurrent feels like when you are in an Ocean.  I feel like I'm on a theme park ride that is making me nauseated, only I don't get motion sickness.  As lame as it sounds, I guess it's just the motion of my life that is making me sick.

I came home so drained, and Hubby wanted to know what was wrong.  I vented a little, and then we got caught up in what I call venting and what he calls problem solving.  I just want to be told I'm right in feeling the way I do and I'm awesome, but instead he is trying to solve problems.  Sometimes even the best couples get into a little Venus/Mars problems.  After he fully aggravated me I saw what he was doing and just told him "I'm having a women problem honey.  I need you to treat this like a women problem and not a man problem."  He understood, and made me feel a little better.

By the end of the night I still wanted to just cry myself to sleep.