Sunday, August 31, 2014

8/30 Motherhood Thought Bubbles

I stayed at work late because I got stuck. I stuck it out with one of my fav coworkers that was there until midnight. She's talking about leaving in a year too, and worried about her son. He's 20 but acts about 13 years old, disrespects her and is generally a leech. It's a rough situation, and it got me thinking how I would be as a mother. Would I always feel like I screwed up no matter what?

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Materialistic

G came over today to take about 70% of our furniture that we are getting rid of.  The house feels so empty now, and there are still things to get rid of.  I'm starting to panic a little, but feel better at the same time.

I went to work and found out that the project I've been working on for weeks is being made completely invalid.  I might have pushed a little harder because I know my time is limited, but I just want to make a difference before I leave.  I don't know that it is going to happen.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Bye Felisha

It was a little stressful not knowing when I was going to pick them up, so I didn't sleep well thinking I would miss their call.  They wanted to leave from their hotel at 2:30, so I missed a little work to drive them.  Hopefully her friends were good contacts to make and it won't be long before I get a job in my hometown.  They were all stand up comedians, so it was a little much for my INFJ ways.  I did have a lot of fun with them though.

I came into work only an hour late, but it was a pretty easy day for my Monday.  I have a feeling that means that tomorrow will be a little crazy.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

I hate swim suits

My BFF "had" to spend the day at a hotel pool with her friends, so I went to join her at noon.  I should have joined her sooner, but none of the mediocre suits I had were hitting me in the right places.  I'm very glad that I've lost weight, but it only seems to have made the problem worse when trying things on.  I actually said out loud "I hate swim suits" and realized how much this disease has changed me.  I loved to go out and swim before.

We stayed until around 5, then my BFF went off to see my messy house and visit my work before I dropped her off.  I'm dropping them off at the airport tomorrow, but I have no idea when.  I sort of got a taste of how my life might be once I get back.  A little stressful, but overall much better.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Airport Run

My BFF and her two friends came into town today, I picked them up at the airport.  There were very happy to hop into my Cube instead of a cab and we had brunch at Chipotle before I dropped them off at their hotel.  One of them (not my friend) is reviewing the hotel and they need to clock crazy hours at the pool before she can get her stuff for free and write her review.

My BFF mentioned in the car ride that I was a writer also, and the friend asked which guilds I was part of and who I've written for.  I immediately felt terrible about myself.  I felt like I had wasted my life and what was I doing?  Moving home with my tail between my legs?  What a loser!

The feeling passed but still haunted me all day.  Her friend said she would set me up with all the things I need to write, which is really nice of her for only really meeting me this year.

The Realtor came over in her 4 inch heels and said that our house looked really good.  Basically as long as we cleaned up the rest of the clutter, she sees no reason why it wouldn't sell for at least 45,000 over what we paid.  At the end of the day, we'll only end up with about 20,000 after paying off all our stuff.  But it is money we didn't have before, so I guess it's a win.  We decided to put it on the market in exactly a week.

This just got way more real.

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Elation

My hometown BFF called me to let me know her flight is coming in just before noon tomorrow.  We talked a little about, basically what we were gonna talk about once she got there.  I'm so excited to see her, I was happy for hours afterwards.  It was pretty much the highlight of my day.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Burnout

For a Saturday it was super busy at work.  It's been busy all week, and I'm getting very burned out.  A day at the pool on my time off will be the perfect way to relax.