Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Small, deathlike thoughts

A co-worker came back from bereavement today.  His dad had died, and he was away all last week.  I gave him the best advice that was given to me when my dad died: I'll be there for you whenever you need me, and I'm not going to bring it up to you again.

Everyone came up to him all day saying how sorry they were.  He took it in stride and was pretty good about it all.  I think he's still in shock.  It really took me back to when my dad died and how I felt about it.  It was such a bad time for me, not only because of his death but because of all the friend drama and unemployment

That was a really low time for me.  I have new problems now, but they don't seem as hopeless as I was then.  I hope things get better for my co-worker.

Monday, April 21, 2014

Cars Land

My car "Inky" went in for an oil change today and found the lower control arm was cracking. It's going to have to go in next week and cost me $600.00.  I guess there was a reason I didn't get a chance to pay more off on my payments. 

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Ghost Town Road Trip With Marriage

We decided to go back to the ghost town today with the hubby and mess around for a bit.  Stuck our feet in the river and drove around a little bit more to explore the area surrounding.  I can feel that I got a bit a sun, and it makes me feel a little more alive.  Something I won't be saying when I get my diagnosis back for skin cancer.

A hometown friend called me later tonight to tell me she is coming to my town...while I'm going to be back home.  She hasn't been here in over 4 years, it just figures.  It makes me a little sad.

Recently I've been really worried about the possibility of moving back home.  I still do want to leave this town, but my old self who doesn't like change is rearing it's head.  I'm so afraid I'll move back and my old friends will not be there for me anymore.  The support system that I moved back for will die and leave me in a place I almost no longer think of as my home.  Dr. Hitler was the only one who has made a difference.  If I move back home, will there be an as good or better doctor?

Will I be happy there?  Or ever?

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Get it Done!

I brought my laptop into work today because I really had to get stuff done.  I had bills to pay and emails to send.  I had bought screen protectors for my new Kindle that came damaged in December.  Yahoo is the worst email system in the world, because I  guess the photos I had proving it was damaged bounced back because they were too large.  I didn't think after 3+ months they would do anything about it, but they are sending me out a replacement.  I also emailed 2 other places where I had gotten defective merchandise, and they are sending me out replacements or refunding me.  I also called my car company and I'll be paying more towards the premium from now on.  I have $8,000 left, and I hope I can get that paid off sooner rather than later.

I went home and then back out to return the unneeded air mattress pump from our friend's stay, and I decided to return a gift that J had gotten me for Christmas that has stayed unopened all this time.  Since we are no longer friends I decided I wanted to buy stupid stuff with my store credit.  I ended up with some ice cream, shampoo and poofs for the shower.

I really feel like a weight has lifted.  I haven't gotten that much accomplished in a long time.  I'm starting to finally feel better too.  Here is hoping I can start getting the upswing going on this year.  Last year ended so well, I hate that it took me three months to get better.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Celebrity Awesomeness

Late yesterday I saw a tweet from my favorite podcaster/stand up comedian.  She was doing a (as it turned out later) private event.  She posted a picture that said "good for one admission" so I printed it out and my sister and I went down to the location.

As I found out once we got there, that print out was good for literally nothing.  However, the girl at the front took pity on us and gave us a couple of passes.  We got in, I was so excited.  I got to meet and get a picture with her afterwards, and she is exactly how I thought she would be.  Totally awesome, it just made me like her more.  She's just as nice and awesome as she seems, and said she'd try and give me a shout out on the next podcast she does.

Pretty darn good day.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Everyone's a Little Bit Racist

I took a friend and co-worker home from work today, and we stopped at Chipotle to pick up some dinner.

After we got back in the car, she noted how everyone was staring at us while we were waiting for our food.  It took me a minute to realize it was literally just because we were friends.  A black person and a white person.

I feel like I was a character in Hairspray.  The fact that we are not the same color should not even remotely make an impact.  This is why I hate people.

On an unrelated note, my team didn't place in the contest.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Project Work

Today was the day to finish up the project work.  It was nice getting some time away from work to do it, but I hate having people ask me how to do something creative.  I think they assume I had some grand master plan for it, but really all I did was ask if they wanted to participate.