Last Day of February

It seems such a tease that the second month of the year be so short.  Next month is my birth month, and I'm really not ready to go deeper into my early 30's.  In a few days it is my co-worker's 40th birthday, and she is over the moon about it.

I suppose age is just change, which I don't usually like.  I was thinking today about how much change I have grown accustomed to.  However, a leopard can't change their spots completely.

Letting Yourself Be Hurt

Days like today, I wonder why I bother to open myself up to people.  The only thing you end up getting is hurt.

I've been fighting back tears all day because J snapped at me to go away.  She was stressed out and sleep deprived, and apologized about 20 minutes later over a written message.  However, the feeling of betrayal still stings now.

We were just saying to each other that it is inexcusable to attack another friend like that.  Then not less than an hour later she does it to me.  Betrayal.  She had been acting funny towards me for awhile, and immediately afterwards she was laughing and joking with everyone else, so clearly it is me she has a problem with.

Betrayal.  The word just keeps echoing in my head.  After the "friend break up" with G, I feel as if I'm back to being friendless.  I suppose there is nothing holding me back from applying for the job I was looking for outside of the building.  It's not like I'd be leaving anyone who cares about me behind.

On the plus side, I called Dr. Hitler's office again today and demanded that they contact the pharmacy.  It sounds like I might have gotten further than I did the day before yesterday.  Hopefully being back on the medication will help my shitty outlook on life right now.  I took the picture above today to cheer myself up.

Hulking Out Due to Lack of Medicine

I called my pharmacy today.  They haven't gotten any calls from Dr. Hitler.  Not having the correct medication for 5 days now is starting to get to me.  If this was heart medication, I could have died.  I don't understand how doctor's stay in business not paying attention to this.

Everyone was in bed again when I got home.  It's getting kinda lonely around here.  I tried to talk J into coming out drinking with me on Friday night.  We'll see if that happens.

Calling it an Early Night

I came home to find the whole house in bed at 9:00 PM.  I would have liked to do something with them, but I guess it wasn't meant to be.

I had to call Dr. Hitler's office because it's been 4 days since my prescription expired and the pharmacy called them to renew and they didn't return their call.  I got a guy on the phone who seemed to have his head firmly up his ass.  After taking forever to pull up my information, he asked if he could call me back.  I asked him to not call me back, but instead just return the phone call to my pharmacy so I can get my prescription.

I'm sure that will all shake out just fine.  /sarcasm

Black Swan/Big

They had Black Swan and Big on an ultra sale at Sam's Club today. So I'm currently reliving 1988 with Tom Hanks. He was my age when He made this movie, so it's weird thinking of myself as "big" now. I don't think anyone really grows up. 

Fun Fact; baby corn is actually baby/small corn!

V for Vendetta

It was a lazy day with some movie watching. I decided the Nexflix disc that has been sitting near the TV for months should be watched. So I'm currently watching V for Vendetta for the first time. 

So far it's not my kind of movie, but I guess it impressed everyone else years ago.  Feels like a non-musical Phantom of the Opera. 

Public Energy Alert

Total Zero tastes like the name. Zero flavor, zero energy. It's like flat Perrier. 

Photo Studio Tour

I got to do a tour of my job's photo studio today.  It was so amazing and I really want to work there now.  It's so amazing to see how much work goes into things before they come to us.  Though this company has been a lot of things to me, it has been an amazing experience that I'll never forget.

I would love to be a part of the studio, because it feels so much more productive.  You really feel like you accomplish something at the end of the day, and you are always busy.

4.0 GPA

My sister brought home her report card yesterday and she got a 4.0.  We have bother never been the greatest of students, so this is a really awesome news. 

I've got a "field trip" to my work's photo studio tomorrow. It should be an adventure. 

I still want a baby goat. 

Today I got to hold a 4 day old goat!

Nothing else matters, really. Look at that face. 

 

I've decided I want a baby goat, and when it gets old I can trade it in for another baby goat

Geode Symbolism and Going for Gold

Over the weekend I saw a co-worker's FB status say that he had a mini panic attack when he discovered he had to move.  The house he was renting is going on the market in April, so he doesn't have much of a choice.

So I brought him a geode I'd cracked open at the park last weekend to remind him that things might look crappy on the outside, but inside it might turn out beautifully. 

A kid I babysat for in high school won a gold metal at the Olympics today. Nothing like that to make you feel old and unaccomplished. 

Planning my own Birthday

My sister had a friend in town this weekend, so we went to a national park/museum today.  It's the best thing in this crumby town, so I hope he had fun.

We woke up early and burnt out quickly, so by 4 PM everyone was burned out.  We ate and then everyone but me went upstairs to nap.

I have to plan my own birthday, and the Disneyland trip is just not going to happen.  I'm going to try for Hearst Castle and San Simeon.  I just hope that it's cheaper and will be worthwhile.

Vampire Academy

My friend has like $150 to theaters, so we went to see Vampire Academy.  It really felt like they didn't care if you didn't read the book, they were just going to keep on trucking without giving you a vocab lesson on all the Vampire, Guardian, Evil Vampire business.

It was enjoyable enough, but now I feel like I have to read the books.  Not because I'll enjoy it, but because I just need to "get it" to move on.

Zoo at Work

My work is usually a zoo of people, crazy things going on...today it was a literal zoo.  They were doing a fundraiser for a zoo that had recently shut down.  I think they raised a lot of money, because it was full of people all day.

I like animals just as much as the next person, but I'm glad I have the next two days off for the place to air out.

Happy Valentine's Day...Ya Fattie

It's impossible not to eat chocolate on this day, people are just giving it away for free.

I found out a very self centered girl I know is pregnant.  It's only about 5 weeks but she can't shut up about it to everyone.  I can't understand blabbing about something that still might go horribly wrong.  A few weeks ago I made a comment about how I really wanted to wait until I was down to the correct weight before I would even try to have kids.  She's overweight.  If she didn't hate me before, she sure does now.

Equalize

Four days of not being able to pop my ears is getting old.  I wake up with a sinus headache every day, but at least smelling strange things are gone as of today.

My doctor called and put me on a lower dose of thyroid medication, said I was on too much.  I really hope I don't slip back into lethargy going back down.

I got a shift an hour earlier than I have now, same days off.  Somethings don't change.

Shift Bid Eve

I spent a majority of the work day trying to work out what I was going to choose on the shift bid tomorrow.  With my sister being here only a short while, and my hubby's days off, I'm not what I should choose.  I'm more afraid that I'll be left with nothing that works for either person.

It would be nice to be the one who's schedule was being worked around, but I guess I'll always be the most flexible.

Back to Work Again

I still have a sinus headache and didn't want to go back to work, but did anyway.  The weekend should have been restful, but it really wasn't.  Being sick has made me severely apathetic about working.  Although, it did feel nice to see all the people at work that I didn't see last week.

I got my movies back from G tonight, and our friendship was left somewhat up in the air.  I really feel like it is over.  I'm sad about it, but also relieved that something worse didn't happen.

Treadmilling it Up

I woke up early today to get an EKG, treadmill stress test, and blood test.  It was all pretty uneventful except for they accidentally made my blood test for the next week, but squeezed me in anyway. 

My veins are deep, but not small.  They always ask if I haven't had enough water, when I'm bursting because I've drank so much.  They sprung a surprise urine test on me too, but I'm not sure I had enough in me to make a difference.

I've got a followup scheduled for the 24th.  Who knows how that will work out.

Hubby and I decided to go for sushi for early Valentine's Day.  Our sushi coma lasted hours, we wasted the whole rest of the day.

The Lego Movie

My friend R invited my sister, hubby and I to go see The Lego Movie.  It was cute, but it was more of a children's movie than a family movie.  I kept looking for things to go a little deeper, but they never did.

It's been a long time since I watched a movie that only had one level.

Smoker's Cough

Anytime I laugh at anyone's jokes I start coughing a messy, gross smoker's style cough.  I'm feeling super attractive.

Work Illness

I went to work today, I didn't have any sick time left.  Everyone said I should be home and I should've taken points for it, but it really was better.  I just had a splitting sinus headache that got a little better as the day went on.

I was so exhausted that when I got home that I went straight to bed and nearly slept through the whole night, something I haven't done in over 10 years.  This has already taken so much out of me, I don't remember the last time I was this sick.

When is this going to freaking end?

Still too sick to function.

Still so sick

I feel like crap still. Make it stop. 

Pharmacy Woes

I felt just as bad, if not worse today.  I asked hubby to drop off my Z-Pak script before going to his own doctor's appointment.  He had to wait longer than I did, so I had to get dressed and take my 100 degree fever ass outside.

As it turns out, Sam's Club Pharmacy is much better at their job than CVS, so I dropped off everything there and had it picked up within 20 minutes.  Except for the Z-Pak that was dropped off at CVS.  It took me longer in the drive through at CVS then shopping and checking out at Sam's Club.

My throat is doing this convulsing thing every 10 minutes or so, making it impossible to sleep.  I just sent an email off that I'm not going to be into work tomorrow.  Until this throat thing stops and I get some sleep, I just don't see it happening.

All I've had to eat today was a mint oreo blizzard.  I'm sure that's bad.  But then my throat does that spasm thing and I think "yeah, that's okay."

Z-Pak, work your magic quickly, and please let this be the last time I'm this sick this year.

Sick Non-Sexy Vodka Party

I started feeling like I had the flu yesterday around 6, and barely made it home from work I was so achy and tired.  Hubby got me some flu medicine, and it gave me enough relief to get to sleep.

I slept in this morning but got myself going to get to the new GP doctor's appointment.  She set me up for a slew of tests a week from today.  Treadmill Stress Test, Full Blood Lab workup, and an echocardiogram.  I'm not super nervous about these tests, but I do hope that something actually comes of them.  This new doctor seems nice enough, but not the personable doctor my friend described.  Maybe she just needed test results before she gets real into it.

She also wrote me a prescription for antibiotics in case this flu thing gets worse, which it did by the time I got home.  Hubby made me a chai latte and now I'm watching Melrose Place in comfy clothes.  I'm very sore and tired, but not tired enough to sleep.  I hope I don't have to fill that prescription, but I'm glad it is there in case.

I went to the bathroom when I got home, and my Vodka Party came early this month.  I guess while I'm feeling bad, I might as well feel all the way bad. 

Sushi Bowl Sunday

I took a co-workers shift today because I don't watch sports. A 10-7 shift feels like it lasts forever, and it's only 1 PM. My lunch is super early too, so I'm not sure what I'm gonna eat. 

Hubby has deemed today Sushi Bowl Sunday. He is at home making sushi for when I get home, then we'll watch the DVRed Puppy Bowl. I just have to save my carbs up for sushi, so eating today is going to be a delicate balance. 

It should end up being an ok day. 

New Month, New You

I can't believe the first month of the year is over already.

I re-arranged my desk at work today, I'm not sure I like it but we are moving soon so it doesn't really matter.  I'm getting some cramps but my Vodka party came late last month, so I'm not sure what is going on.

Working my 6th day of the week tomorrow.  Go Sports!