New Years Eve. New Year, New Resolution

I'm up early to let in the handyman for a check up on our heater. I got an email this morning that the three hour interview was for nothing. I was almost relieved. 

Of course, that means I'm truly unemployed going into the New Year. 

My mom wants me to pursue writing and photography as a means of making money. I'm not sure I can work by myself like that, but I guess only time will tell what next year holds for me. 

I think this writing exercise has been both good and bad.  Good in that it forced me to write every day, which was something that I needed to do anyway. Bad in the sense that I don't feel like I got any good quality writing out of the entire year.  I didn't work on my novel at all, and the November project completely messed up my entire writing style. I think a photography challenge would be a little better for next year, as it affords me more time to write creatively. I'm going to few hours left to decide what kind of photography challenge it will be. 

I'll be back here to consolidate the months and see exactly what I learned from it. Hopefully I can still get something out of it. 

Until then, Happy New Year everyone. 

Do You Wanna Build a Snowman?

I am awake at 5 AM and it snowed several inches. Hubby was awake for a minute, so I asked if he wanted to build a snowman. He said no. :-(

Later we did a thousand things and hubby scared me by sliding all over the road.  I guess I'm not over my near accident.

A 3 Hour Interview

I had a three hour interview today. I either nailed it or bombed because I bombed the math test.

Into the Woods

The BFF, hubby, mom and I went to see Into the Woods. Mom bailed on food afterwards so we got burritos and took a trip to Sam's Club. We bought the BFF's BF a frame for his mattress and loaded it in my trunk hilariously. It came to about 3 inches from the steering wheel to the backseat. Then we went to the BFF'S house and talked about how awesome it was too be living in the same town.

Ugly Christmas Party

We went to an Ugly Christmas sweater party tonight. My BFF's Improv team was there and Hubby integrated himself in nicely. He will most likely join the team when he can.

It was a long night but a short day. We didn't get much done in the long run, but we are starting to have a social life again. 

Escape

I spent the afternoon and evening with BFF. I'm so glad I can escape to her house and get perspective on the whole situation. I had a long talk with the Hubby yesterday too, and I think we are now on the same page.

I wish I could just figure out how to stop worrying. 

The Third Act

I've been internalizing a lot of my emotions since moving back.  Dealing with 3 personalities instead of just 1 or 2 has been extremely taxing.  Never was that more clear than today when my Jewish Mother and Sister dogged all over Christmas while my Hubby was trying hard to embrace celebrating a Jewish Christmas, aka going out to Chinese...sans movie, since everyone else seems to have adopted that and it was too busy.  I think people just don't know how to communicate anymore, so they seek out movies, tablets, electronic distractions in place of just getting together as a family.

Even as I sit here watching one of my gifts from Hubby, he sits downstairs on the computer while my mom reads upstairs in her bedroom. My sister will be out of the house until everyone else has gone to bed.  The family is fractured even when it is together.  I can't continue to force a conversation between them, I'm not built that way.  I'm not used to feeling like this...not anymore.  Our family was this fractured before I left the house, I just forgot.  It's just more complicated with Hubby here.

I feel like my life has entered the third act.  I've gone through childhood, young adult, and full grown adult life is starting.  I'm a totally different person than I was a few weeks ago.  I need to figure out who I am now.